Bad dream "Baby" from 06/22/2010

Woke my self up last night around 3am crying. No screaming which is usually how I awaken from a bad dream. Was with him and we were driving somewhere, I don't know where we were going and I did not recognize the vehicle either. The feeling was sad, gloomy, but not sure why at the time. I was in horrible pain because I had just given birth, and I said that the cramps are awful and that I needed some medicine for it. I remember explaining to Sam that my uterus is cramping so bad because it is trying to shrink back to it's normal size. I don't recall giving birth or how or why we were in the car. Next thing I know we are at the hospital and I am walking down the hallway, with assistance from Sam, holding my arm, sort of guiding me. I recall him leaning in towards me slightly bent over as if he was trying to hear me whisper something but I wasn't saying anything. Then we come into a room. There was a bed in the middle and a dark haired doctor on the left and two nurses on the right. I said to the doctor that he has to give me something for the pain, and he said "there is something we have to take care of first" Then I was laying in the bed and looking down towards my feet were the doctor on the left and Sam on the right. Both were dressed in scrubs, even the masks and hair covers. Then I saw the baby - it was rather large to be a newborn, and a terrible feeling of dread and sadness came over me. The baby was slightly disfigured on its legs and feet - it's feet were enlarged and the skin looked really thick. The doctor placed the baby down on a table at my feet and held the baby still and it looked like he was sawing the baby's left foot off,blood was pouring and the baby screamed and screamed and cried in agony, it was the worst sound i ever heard. I could feel the pain in him as he was sawing, he was crying but i could feel that he felt he had to do it. I started screaming for them to stop, asking them why they were doing this. then a nurse came up to me and she had the baby in her arms and then placed it in a container of water, completely submerged the baby and as soon as she did the baby stopped crying and looked at me as if it were not in anymore pain. The baby seemed to be able to breath under water, and seemed completely peaceful, the nurse said that she wanted to show me how serious this is and she pointed to the baby's head I saw that the baby was bleeding through it's skin. I could see the blood seeping out of the pores in it's skin, some of the pores looked like holes, holes that had been pushed out from the inside, and the blood mixed the water in the tank. I was so confused with everyone, none of this made any sense, what did the bleeding skin have to do with the baby's foot being cut off. The next I remember I was home and my mother was there, there were other people in the room, but I don't recall who they were. The general feeling was that they were people that I knew, but I only remember talking to my mother, and she looked at me with a sad face. The whole time he was by my side - an honest feeling of comfort was coming from him. I started telling my mother what was wrong with the baby - I didn't mention to her that he was the one that cut it's left foot off I just said that the baby is bleeding everywhere, through it's skin and inside it's body and that it didn't look like the baby was going to make it. I was sobbing as I was telling her about it. The baby was not with us and I don't recall any feeling towards it being male or female.