Related to the "Nagging Fear" post

              So funny how you just get the feeling that something isn't right.  Yeah i said there were no red flags, but obviously there was.  How about the inability to tolerate anything less than what he considers to be perfect.  Outright rude to neighbors, strangers, and others.  I believe it was all just an escape route for him.  A way to get out of the situation he was in.  No one goes from the complete total opposite ends of the spectrum like that without hidden motives already in play.  unlike anything I've seen before. Yeah i'm hurt.  it's been a couple months now, being single again that is.  I like being single, actually I love it.  I'm very comfortable with myself, more comfortable then I have been for a while, but having him still so close makes is just a constant reminder that just across the hall from me is the man that was so different (in the beginning)  the man that said and acted like I meant the world to him.  Yeah just across the hall, moved out, but not far.   The strange thing is that we are still friends.  he says he still cares about me.  he's helping me pay off a repair bill for my car.  Why?   I don't get it.  He can be so flipping nice and yet so strange.   Every time I look at him I just want to say a bunch of stuff to him. Let him know just how bad he hurt me.  I don't though, I don't say anything.  Before he moved out I did tell him that if he keeps treating people like they are indispensable that's all he will ever have is his career.  don't think he saw that coming, cause he questioned me about "calling him out" yet this is after he blew his opinions all over me about my life, the mistakes that my daughters have made, and my past relationships.  I recently had a friend of mine ask me why I keep picking losers.  Wow that struck a nerve, cause this one was seemed totally different.  no drugs or alcohol issues, 20 years at his job, ex marine, no criminal records.  I don't know what to say except I know I'm better off because what he showed me was not unconditional love at all.  I told him that too, I told him I deserve unconditional love, and this sure wasn't it.