Thursday, January 12, 2012
Thoughts on dreams I never talk or write about
I would think it's safe to assume that most everyone has dreams that they just do not talk about with anyone. Better yet, they might not even be brave enough to put them to paper. Possibly out of fear that no one would be able to accept them, or maybe you would be looked at differently or the fear that putting them down on paper would some how bring them to some sense of reality or realization or some sort. I am mostly speaking of sexual dreams, however I have had some extremely horrific nightmares that just belong buried in the cobwebs of my twisted psyche. I understanding that dreams are just that - twisted emotions; thoughts; problems; scenarios; your sub conscious mind trying to work stuff out, maybe... or are they just a bunch of nonsense. dreams have always been an issue in my life every since I can remember. My mother can recall me as a small child having night terrors. I can still remember some of them to this day and not a lot of them make sense, which is another reason why I like the idea of putting them down on paper. If nothing else it makes for interesting reading. There is so much stuff going on in my life right now and has been for a long time, and as I sit and write in this blog I feel a sense of waste. Maybe it's a little guilt for spending time writing about stuff that doesn't have a bit to do with the problems in my life, or how I am going to work out my current situations. I think that may be just why I keep this blog going - it takes me away from the issues that drag me down and lets my mind venture somewhere else, if for nothing more than a few minutes, it is still a refreshing release, a cleansing, a renew. Twisted Psyche - sounds like a good title for this blog all together.
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Hi Amy,
ReplyDeleteYou remind me a lot of myself when I was little. (I'm not really "old" now, 21 but still.) I want to ease your stress. I have been through a lot of terrible sexual abuse in my real life, and in my dreams. I also had awful night terrors of the Holocause when I was 9-11+ (they would last for everyday for 2 weeks then disappear and come back a year later, etc.)
There are basically 3 types of dreams. Yes, the most common and talked about are the "problem-solving" sub-concious dreams where your subconcious tries to sort through everything going on. These dreams are NOT just non-sense. You can use these to help you CONCIOUSLY feel better about the struggles you're going through. Often times you can actually find the answer in your problem-solving dream to make "real life" less miserable. You are soo lucky and gifted to be able to recall your dreams so well. Many people can not. Which leads to dream number 2.
"psychic" related dreams. the obvious is premonitions. (I'm sure you've heard of them.) Basically you see future events - and they don't always have to be your OWN future you are seeing. So do not get scared by them. and again, these are very rare so you probably won't have a lot of these. For me, I very very rarely have promonitions about my own life.
3. past lives/again, not always yours.
You can think of these like the subconcious problem solving dreams of other people if you do not believe in reincarnation. However, if you have even a slight inkling that this MAY maybe be a possibility, you may think of them as your past lives carrying over into your dreams now - again, to help you with your real-life NOW problems.
Try to think of your dreams as helpers. You are so gifted to remember them. If you learn to control them and interpert them better you'll be really strong. :)
Love,
manda/kailo
thank you for the input about the three types of dreams. As I read over this post I see how it can be interpreted as dreams about past sexual abuse, and I just want to say that I have not had sexual abuse, at least not as a child anyway. I've been forced into some things when I was around 19, and then there were two relationships I was in where I was basically force me to do things against my will. I don't talk about these things to my family, I mean some family members know "some" of it, but not all of it. I feel it's just easier for me to bury it, or at least try to. I'm so sorry to hear about your abuse, I know that the things I've had to deal with were hard enough and the guilt I felt because I was older, but to have gone through such things as a child I can't even imagine. I have three daughters and my youngest was abused by her father when he took her for visitations. we split when she was still in diapers, and when she was 5 she opened up to her older sister about what was going on. Not going to say much else about that. It's a hard subject. I honestly feel your pain. I'm sorry you had to go through that.
Deletetake care, and stay in touch,
love,
Amy
Hey, I just read the next post about you having a daughter. I'm so sorry about the "you remind me of me when I was little" comment. It's more that I can see your inner child. I didn't mean that you are immature or anything. You probably have a lot of faerie energy around you, that's good. You don't want to be felt energy wise as a bitter and jaded old person haha :p
ReplyDeleteLove&Light,
manda
your comment was fine, I did not take it in a bad way. I get what your saying completely. Faerie energy, I don't know much about. My inner child I feel is always with me. I feel that it struggles and fights with my "old soul" that I feel I also have. I've always felt like I have an old soul somehow. kind of hard to explain, I've kind of always felt this.
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