I've been very introspective lately. I say lately, like I'm not this way most of the time, which is not true. I am always introspective, always empathetic, sometimes too empathetic to other people's feelings. When I hear someone's views about someone else or a situation and I can't stop myself from thinking that so much wasted emotion has been put into the negative. It just doesn't make sense to me. I just don't understand it. I don't have to understand it, but I don't have to accept it either. People can have their views and their feelings and it's just that "theirs" they own it. I've come to realize that when my views on a situation differ from someone else's views I tend to feel disconnected from them. I tend to feel a little less open with them. That's the way I feel. I can own that, but I'm feeling that a lot lately and I don't like it. It makes me feel uncomfortable and uneasy. I don't like that either! I know you can't please everybody all of the time, but my urge to do so consumes me. It's is absolutely draining. I would rather be uncomfortable than make someone else uncomfortable. I would rather bite my tongue then hurt someone with words that can never be unspoken.
